I suppose in life you always want what you don't have. In terms of children, I guess I always wanted a girl because of the "dream" that was put in my head from childhood. "When you have a daughter, you can give those to her." All the dresses of mine that were kept for my own little girl and everything else for the child I was one day going to have. So I guess its really a matter of mourning the end of the dream. The mother-daughter relationship that I will never experience and all those "one day..." images that have to be re-drawn. So when I found out I was having another boy, it took me a few days to process it. Finally I came to some conclusions about the whole "gender preference" thing.
First of all, the only thing I can't do with a boy is walk him down the aisle, and really, that means very little in the grand scheme of it all.
Second, the Mother-Daughter relationship that I so craved as a child and wanted to experience some day is not gone, merely re-written. Who says I can't take my sons to the spa for a day of pampering? Who says I can't talk to them about girls the way I would talk to a daughter about boys?
Really, there is nothing I can possibly miss out on, unless I let myself miss out on it.
I read once that you spend one month deciding what gender you are hoping for and 9 months telling yourself it doesn't matter as long as it is healthy. Maybe we should skip that first month and go straight to the healthy part.
One of my fave shows is House of Babies. Its a show about a birth center in Florida. The midwife said "some people want a specific gender, but maybe the gender they want isn't what is right for their family". I think that is the case.
Some one up there obviously has a plan for all of us, and I have to think they might know a little more than I do.
*baby-maker, picture-taker